There are people who come into our lives and then quickly leave, and others who - after you get to know each other - never seem to stray. I could see him being either type.
I can see him sitting behind some random middle-aged couple at a hockey game, football tailgate, or concert, and inviting the pair to join him and his friends for an amazingly fun day. Maybe the couple planned to go straight home afterwards, but this young, outgoing, vivacious 24/25 year old stranger gives them the best day they’ve had in a long time. And afterwards, they never talk again. But in that one day, out of the blue, he was a part of their lives.
I also KNOW that he is dedicated to his good friends - willing to drive for hours (5+, one way) and completely rearrange or set aside his existing plans if there is a good opportunity to visit someone he hasn’t seen in months - even if the visit can only last one night. And these friends he has to make such an effort to see, it may have been years since they talked regularly.
I already know that if I ever get to truly know him - if he becomes a part of my life - that I won’t be able to live as the latter, so maybe I need to accept the lesser disappointment and live as the former. Which still sucks.
Unfortunately true. I hate when I eff things up. Especially when I know there’s potential - or worse, certainty - for a great future.
I mean it. (Apparently I’m emotionally volatile right now.)
Ugh, everything has to be complicated…. Is it a game of “hard to get” or “I’m really just not interested”?
Can’t not reblog this time.
Joel Burns, councilman in Fort Worth, Texas used his podium to plead with gay teens to re-think suicide as an option. “Attitudes will change, life will get better, you will have a lifetime of happy memories if you just allow yourself and give yourself the time to make them. High school was difficult, coming out was painful. I want to tell any teen who is watching this, life will get better.”